Lightning

Flashcrack connection spark
Sudden sharp vacuumhole
Lightsound deviant in the dark
Oakwood galvinized steel pole

Neuronal flare and eyebright blind
Capillary passive activity bloom
Patterns in nature and in my mind
Oxygen zipping out of the room

Popcrackle and zigzag splint
Crashing down with thunder rumble
Noise and image clashed with flint
Drywet hardsoft mumblejumble

Withdrawal

I am made of hate and pain

(Can't talk, sorry, might bite)

One muscle spasms and then

A full body contraction 

(fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck)

Shaking and writhing on the floor

The only thing I want is to die 

Someone please give me a cigarette

Or a bullet between my eyes

Pause.

A wave of brief clarity and still.

But it doesn't last long,

There's always another wave to crest

Torturous seesaw, rollercoaster riptide

Carried out again on a sea of rage

Loneliness and despair 

(It's okay, 

I understand what you're going through)

(No, you don't, not unless 

You've been here, too,

Or you're here with me now)

Don't you dare come near me

I don't know when I'll change back

Not Jekyll and Hyde, 

more abyss and mask

Worse than a werewolf 

No better than anything ever

I am violence and mindless and fate

I am incapable of caring

I am raw feeling incarnate

One giant exposed nerve ending 

Cause and effect, determined

Nonetheless wholly unpredictable

Without all the data defined

Abstracted for false objectivity

And left mewling in the trash.

Fret

Twist wring twitch fling

Bounce bounce bounce

Hum click thumb tick

Jounce jounce jounce