(Can't talk, sorry, might bite)
One muscle spasms and then
A full body contraction
(fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck)
Shaking and writhing on the floor
The only thing I want is to die
Someone please give me a cigarette
Or a bullet between my eyes
Pause.
A wave of brief clarity and still.
But it doesn't last long,
There's always another wave to crest
Torturous seesaw, rollercoaster riptide
Carried out again on a sea of rage
Loneliness and despair
(It's okay,
I understand what you're going through)
(No, you don't, not unless
You've been here, too,
Or you're here with me now)
Don't you dare come near me
I don't know when I'll change back
Not Jekyll and Hyde,
more abyss and mask
Worse than a werewolf
No better than anything ever
I am violence and mindless and fate
I am incapable of caring
I am raw feeling incarnate
One giant exposed nerve ending
Cause and effect, determined
Nonetheless wholly unpredictable
Without all the data defined
Abstracted for false objectivity
And left mewling in the trash.
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