Songs I've Written These Many Years

"(I'm Tired of People Trying to) Save Me from Myself"
This one is has a pretty standard blues riff throughout. I think I wrote this in 2014.
I'm tired of people trying to save me from myself
I said I'm tired of people trying to save me from myself
Or thinking I am so helpless that I can't do a thing for myself

Tell me the truth
Don't even lie to me
I got to know what's going on, baby
Don't keep me in
and don't keep me out
I got to be able to walkabout
and don't lock me up because I'll keep on climbing back off that shelf

I'm tired of people trying to save me from myself
I'm tired of people trying to keep me on a shelf
You know it's true, honey, I get along fine without your help

I paid all my bills
I'll even pay off my debt
Leaving you is something I cannot regret
I'll get what I want
and no thanks to you
Whether or not I am feeling blue
Believe me when I tell you I can do all right by myself

I'm tired of people trying to save me from myself
You'd think I was a mortal danger to my own health
But baby, my reckless nature is my very own personal wealth
I'm tired of people trying to save me from myself
I said I'm tired of people trying to save from myself
You'd think I was a mortal danger to my own health
I said I'm tired of people trying to save me from myself
I'm tired of people trying to save me from myself
If I want to be a danger to myself I'll save myself from myself.


"Wasting Away"
This one is more of an Irish ballad, written around 2009.
Wasting away
under the moon
Bonny, my mother said
come home soon

Wasting away
under the noon
Honey, my father said
leave home soon

Wasting away
all alone
Darling, my lover said
What is the use?

Wasting away
crowded around
Lady, a stranger said
I have a view

Wasting away
up in the air
Mummy, my daughter said
I can see you

Wasted away
under the ground
Lovey, the earth said
Welcome home


"Confessions"
My first song of which I have any confidence. I wrote this in 1999, and this is another Irish ballad type of song. (The actual first song I wrote when I was about ten or eleven, and it is very silly.)
A throbbing in my chest
Convulsions in my soul
I cannot move lest
I slip into that hole
A hole of dark and ice
A hole of hate and despair
A place that's filled with fright
A place beyond repair

I see him in the twilight
His eyes catch mine and I pale
I want to go to him tonight
But far away I am held
For I know that he loves another
And there's naught that I can do
O, take me, sweet oblivion
For I can find rest in you

All I want
Is to be with my love
All I should need
Is to have faith in my God

But those who believe are foolish
For they are blind to the truth
Once there may have been a God
But he's gone and there's naught we can do
For God isn't in existence
For love is a cruel lie
And God is love, then God is dead
For love so long ago died

All I want
Is to find a happy me
And all I should need
Is far beyond what I can see

So death open and embrace me
There's naught I should live for
This earth is a hellish casket
And I lie broken on the floor
O, do you know the way
To love and life and peace
O, give me a reason
To keep up hope at least

And all I want
Is a reason to go on
Yet all that I have believed
I now believe is wrong


"Down"
I wrote this one in 2001, another blues riff.
You say that you don't mean to hurt me
But you can't seem to stop yourself
All of the lies that you tell me 
And all of the bruises you give me
I don't know why I even bother
Trying to help or change you
'Cause even on good days
You keep on draggin' me down (down, down, down)
And all that I want you to do
Is leave me alone now
You can go your own way
And I will go mine

You say that you love me
You can't live without me
But that don't explain all
The girlfriends you still have
And I don't mean to bother you
with all my complainin'
But if you don't want me
Don't come around any more
'Cause even on good days
You're draggin' me down

I don't mean to bother you
But I don't even love you
So why even bother
When neither of us cares
All that I want you to do
Is leave me alone now
You can go your way
And I will go mine
And that's where you're goin'
All by yourself
I'm not gonna stay around
Go drag your own self down
(down, down, down)


"Buncha Motherf***in' Squares"
Now for some pop/rock inspired by Janis Joplin, written around 2004.
I was walking to the back of the dorm
just the other day,
singing some stupid old song to myself
When all around me I noticed there were squares
buncha motherfuckin' squares.

I went up the stairs of my rabbit hole
trying to get away
But even up there I was surrounded by squares
buncha motherfuckin' squares
And I backed into a corner and shouted
"You motherfuckin' squares better leave this round girl alone!"
goddamn motherfuckin' squares

Listen to me now:
Those motherfuckin' squares fuck around each day
try to get that hard-earned pay
All the people of the world ignore it all
working almost every day
Those motherfuckin' squares just cannot see
that they are beautiful and so are we
And everyday I am surrounded by squares
buncha motherfuckin' squares, y'all

So I'm tryin' to get away from the world
I'm tryin' to make make a play for this girl
I'm tryin' to find a way to swirl
But all around me I notice there are squares
buncha motherfuckin' squares
So if you find yourself alone
round and rollin' far from home
Just remember you can bounce and all
Because my friend you ain't square at all
These motherfuckin' squares can't roll
These motherfuckin' squares can't twirl
These motherfuckin' squares can't bowl
All they can do is fuckin' follow

So give me some freedom and give me some room
And follow me and my sweet perfume
We'll go to where the air is clean
and round off the edges of all we see
And then be no longer surrounded by squares
fuck those motherfuckin' squares


"I Don't Give a F***"
This one is more in the spirit of the Jackson Five, written in 2004 or 2005 with verses added later.
I don't give a fuck
I don't give a fuck
You can't make me
I don't have to
I don't give a fuck

Let me tell you something, now
All about your life
People will make you do things
Whether or not you like
They'll tell you it's your duty
Or say its virtuous
But let me tell you something
You give 'em one from us
And you say (Chorus 1)

I don't give a damn
I don't give a damn
I don't wanna
So I ain't gonna
I don't give a damn

Well, well, well,
Girls know about boys
Boys know about girls
But knowing ain't understanding
All around the world
They'll all try to hurt you
But whether a girl or boy
Let me tell you something
Don't let 'em take you for a toy
Just tell 'em (Chorus 1, Chorus 2)

I don't give a shit
You can't make me do it
It won't happen
That's why I'm laughin'
I don't give a shit

I don't give a fuck
I do not give a fuck
You can't make me
I don't have to
I don't give a fuck